Wednesday, April 2, 2014

Nigh

Your breath against my skin reminds me of our fragile significance
and how soon we will part, so in this close moment, Ah, so close
we remain.

How simple it is that I have you, once more.
That memory of your scent is lit with delicate flavor
while hearts beat blood quicken.

Offer your hand as mine entwine, and we are one.
That bond though firm but tremulous.
What seemed weak in love is strong while we slowly die
in sweet catharsis, widens a world lost on false purpose
and this otherworldly existence overshadows the ordinary.

Monday, March 3, 2014

I Am No One

No one is arrogant
No one is illegal
No one is famous
No one is intelligent
No one is suspicious
No one is believable
No one is hated
No one is Jesus
No one is Atheist
No one is Jewish
No one is American
No one is political
No one is hungry
No one is lying
No one is nice
No one is beautiful
No one is fat
No one is pitied
No one is obsequious
No one is special
No one is dyslexic
No one is disabled
No one is addicted
No one is tortured
No one is abused
No one is confused
No one is loved
No one is rebellious
No one is happy
No one is neglected
No one is defensive
No one is perfect
No one is finished

Saturday, January 18, 2014

Flesh

To know is wise but now?
What have I produced but a mirage?
It is a fool's pursuit and yet it continues
I exist without friendship
It should sting with tears but does not
Alone with myself, I realize I am all I need
It is no different now than before
I am the same as I have been
Without connection or allied with thinkers
One ilk is no comfort
While cliches perpetuate false standards
I glimpse it and know for a moment
All philosophy thrown away into imagination
Becomes like a sea lost on some horizon
Where are our principles and disciplines?
The fight will never transpire into true transformation
America is a land of do it another day
Civil wars lost not fought for your picket fence
Who are we without democracy?
We are whores one and all
Though denial may place a veil over your face
Viscerally you know that it is true
A poser did it, and it is done
No glory, no big win, and no prize
Just more plastic passion and endless hours of fleshy catharsis
I see a continuity is all that is
Ethics became unimportant for you
A battle and hatred and words of enmity
But what is it?
It is failure
A failure of pride, hope, and decency
A failure of love, trust, and acceptance
The pity itself is not real, either
Nothing is, except hours of waiting
Do these things make you wish you had more?
What would it get you?
There is no heaven and no hell
It is black, evil, and illicit
We have gone backward from progress
And for what?
For nothing

Monday, December 30, 2013

I Love A Whore

I love your flesh, you big beautiful woman.
I know your pussy as if it is mine.
Live it, and god damn it, I can't quit you, girl.
Your sweet indulgence is my forgiveness.
It is so good to be in love with you.
I can't help it, if I can't stand being without you.
You know my pleasure is your pain, but I'll make it go away.
I am the lusty cure for all that ails, as you forget fidelity.
My endless devotion is easy for me, baby.
I need your everything, baby, because you know me.
Fuck me, you are the best I've ever seen.
You know you are good at what you do.
I cannot stop falling in love with you loving me.

Sunday, December 29, 2013

Pain

I am unloved, unloving, and disgusting.
I am a whore who does not care at all about her jons.
They are all jons.  They are faceless, boring, pieces of flesh.
I am nothing, no one, used, old, and fat.
I am lazy, afraid, and alone.
Your obsession is paid for by the government.
Your interest is in the drama that unfolds.
It is cruel and perverted.  I am the lowest common denominator.
I am putrid, malleable, and uninterested in your dyad as compromise.
Continuity appeals more to me than co-dependency.
I could find comfort in an easy existence.
It is my foolish choice to stand naked in front of you.
You hate me as you are told by religious tradition.
I would feel proud of my independence, but I cannot.
As the insults overwhelm me, I would scream out but stay silent.
Frozen in fear, I bear it eternally.
I am lost among those who ignorantly tolerate it.
I should be dead by now, but I do not have the ability to do it.
If I told you to kill me, you would not.
We both know that you would pay more than I.
I used to love some, but now I know it is not real.
Love has gone from my life permanently.
I am in hell on Earth.  This hell is mitigated by fleeting moments of pleasure.
I am forgotten and oppressed, but I persist.
Why would I want this torture?
I hate it, but you refuse to bend and instead lay into me.
I hit myself again, but no one cares.  They feel it to be justice.
I am no woman, anymore.  I have no other name than slut.
My healing is impossible.  I do not expect real transcendence.
I will be dust to dust soon enough.
When I am, the suffering will end.
Until then, I am your punching bag, scapegoat, and catharsis.
I sense you are forced to do it, because we move too swiftly.
Celerity allows this diatribe to be the sound bite.
Rancorous indulgences defend themselves.
My defense is pathetic and weak.
I have, finally undone the years of analysis that coerced a lie.
That fabrication I discerned to be will continue to haunt me.
If only I had sold out and attempted to be you, it still would not work.
I only accept the love of other whores when necessary.
I wait until our next meeting when redundancy comes.


Monday, December 16, 2013

Slut

My name is, "Slut."  I am not real.  I have ceased being human.
I allow myself to be abused, so I have no right to fight back.
I am legal but barely.  Sometimes, I am illegal.
I am no woman, because I have been reduced to trash.
I stay silent to prevent myself from hurting you when you destroy me.
I take my place as I should, because no one cares.
I am boring and rude and should be punished.
I am an object and ridiculed.
I have no worth and less money than myth suggests.
I steal your husbands and threaten your foundation.
I am empowered but shamed when I shout, "O!"
My pleasure is second to yours.
I can be anything you want, but only if you pay me a pittance.
I am misunderstood and cast out of a broken society.
If I want Human Rights, you say no.
I am dog, concrete, and dead.
My pride should be stuffed deep inside.
I am no queen, because I am witch, instead.
I am not pretty, and I am fat, so I only accept the dregs.
I am yesterday's news and a forgotten suffragette.
I am a target to be dumped on as I strut outside tradition.
I am the scapegoat, the whore, and the cunt.
A holocaust denies me my place among the good.
A bully is king when I show my face.
The cop can kill but my end is of no consequence.
I am your cum dump, easy indulgence, as I hide your identity.
My love is fleeting as you console your conscience.
I can only answer yes or no, sir.
I am solitary, unencumbered, and your pound of flesh.
While the faggots burned under my body, your vindication just.
Burned out, ashes, dust to dust.  Shamed catharsis.







Sunday, November 10, 2013

Bitch

The melody offends as the dogs lament
Silence remarks in raven and penned
While bodies once whole and hearty lay still
Stimulant induced emotion retorts

Guiltless, I wait for dawn to arrive
As I'll slip into a day of deprive
Forgotten the ills of yesterday's thrills
Battered by cacophony drills

Brilliant sincere when patience I fear
Our human response requires of us
From pipes into dance in reckless trance
More certain of wishes I used to transcend

Gone are my dreams of fame and a lover
Into a new politic suffer
I had some accoutered dripping with gilt
On went the comfort of passages death

Instilled in myself have I oft dwelt
That my voice be heard with winged and pearl
Careful of the instant reprieve
Those left of this battle will only receive